My maternity leave is starting officially on 8 Mar. With the scheduled medical check-ups on this coming Friday and next Friday, I am left with 6 days of work (including today). Though only 6 more days, I find it a dread to come to work.

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I woke up feeling super tired, lethargic and relunctant to prepare for work. I will wake up and spend at least 15 minutes in bed trying to convince myself to go or not to go to work and trying to convince myself that I am feeling unwell. Haha. Being responsible towards my students especially when CA 1 is just a week away, I make it for work most of the times. Keke.

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I always have mixed feelings towards my work. I dread the part of stepping into office. Yet, I really enjoy the times when the children are around. Sometimes, I wish to tell my management that I want to only start work from 1pm onwards. I dread the morning portion especially when there are morning meetings.

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Coming to work, teaching and playing with the children no longer excite me as much as before. I did not lose interest in teaching or lose the love for children. I still want to play a part in the children's lives by nurturing them towards God's way. However, I realise my philosophy is no longer synchronised with the centre's. In such an environment dealing with children, I cannot compromise my philosophy. Yet, I alone cannot resist the old tradition with my mere strength. I am going to take one step at a time.

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Anyway.... I had a great time with the bitches yesterday. The bitching session was awesome!!! When the ultimates meet, everything is in full force one~ Haha. Anyway, I realise bitching session plays a vital part in my life. Haha. I realise I can only do without a proper session for 2 weeks. Any drag will result in me being moody and bad-tempered. Haha. It is not as if I have a frustrating life but rather, it is an outlet for relaxation. Keke.

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2 more weeks and my 2nd baby is due!!! I am looking forward to my delivery cause I want to slim down, relax at home everyday, play mj, go clubbing, go shopping and plan some exciting stuff for my career. Yet, I wish my pregnancy will go on and on cause I love to be pampered. Keke. I like the feeling of muching on tons of chocolates in the middle of the night without worrying about waking up with an unsightly tummy. The tummy is perpetually visible anyway. Keke. I can feel the shopping urge building up in me everyday. Not forgetting mj!!! Yvonne, I overcame my fear of your house last night. Haha.

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