I am nearing 26, in just another 2 more days! I am going beyond the quarter of a century! I am one more step closer to the BIG 30!

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Feels awfully weird and no longer confident about myself. Well... At 26, I am supposed to be a mature lady with at least a proper career or at least on the way to marriage. I am no doubt going to be 26 in 2 more days but I have no career (yet) and no definite plans for marriage (yet).

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I feel confused. I feel old counting my age and yet, I feel young (at heart) and luckily, I still do not look old yet. Should I buy all the mature mature clothings whereby all 26 years old mature OL are wearing which makes them look their age or even older? Or should I just continue to mislead others with my deceiving looks? Haha.

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Looking young at this age has its own advantages and disadvantages. I feel happier when others (somehow) mistook me for a student and yet, I feel awkward when the shop assistant addresses me as 'girl' or 'xiao mei' when I am just about his/ her age. I feel discredited at work when parents ask if I have finished my studies. Yes!!! I finished my studies and that was a long time ago k! The parents wonder if I meant I finished O Levels (only) long time ago. My students are horribly surprised when they eventually found out that I actually graduated from uni. Sigh...

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I jsut feel terrified looking at my age. Eew... 26 leh. As I age, I will look older and I will look different. No joke, I am really terrified of ageing and the symptoms of ageing appearing.

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I reject ageing!!!

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