@ Crossroad

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Recently, something got me thinking about my future career advancement. I am at crossroad, not sure whether to pursue my passion for kids and join the teaching force or rejoin the bitchy corporate world again.
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Anyway, I just promised Aunty Esther to be the conference convener for her June conference. Well... Nothing foreign... I have done APEC just 2 months after I joined Andy. With the guidance and experience from Andy's, I seriously think there should be no major problem (at least for me). Though Aunty Linda keeps reminding me this is a totally different conference from what I have done. No doubt the genre is different but the stuff that need to be done should be about same same ba. The major difference would be the kind of people that I am going to work with. For the years with Andy, I had my professional colleagues' assistance and we always managed to pull the conference through with a committee of max 5pax(?). This time round, I am going to work with a group of NIE teachers (15 pax). This conference is supposed to be part of their project. Well... I had only one meeting with them and I think even if they were to send 50 pax, I doubt I can do as well as I did when with Andy. You get weird people who can't seem to speak up and when they finally speak, they mumble. Are teachers supposed to mumble? Or students can understand 'mumblish' now? Wahaha. Anyway, meeting started at 12 noon and ended at 1.30pm and there are actually some freakos who can stroll in at 1.30pm and sensing absolutely nothing wrong at all!!! I super wanted to punch the girl with a weird strand of curly hair sticking out of nowhere and the guy who was super late. No names to be mentioned here but if anyone somehow read this, i can only say 'I don't care!'.
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I sort of made up my mind. I don't think I will go into teaching anymore. Well... I realise I love children and I love playing with them but not when they are devils and give you attitude answers. I realise I can't really take all those attitude stuff and I will probably snap before the 3 years' bond is up. I can only say sorry to the teaching force for losing a history gem like me. Wahaha.
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Aunty Linda was right. I left Andy because he forced me to it. I wanted to join teaching because he forced me to it too. No doubt teaching was my Plan B since uni days but I never really had the calling for it. At least not yet. I love children. I find teaching meaningful. More meaningful than trying to close sales and hit monthly quotas. Well... I am just not too suitable to make that difference in the children's lives afterall. I can try teaching and I know I can definitely do it. However, I will probably lose that drive and determination to be that different factor in my children's lives within a couple of years. Well... If I am really going to be a teacher, I really want to make that difference. I have no intention to be a free-loader "civil servant" wasting tax payers' money. I paid tax and the feeling suxz. At least for now, I know I am not suitable for teaching yet.
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My latest dateline to rejoin the corporate force again... July 2008. I would love to go back Shenton Way!
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