Whenever I argue with Hong, I always feel emotional. When the emotions strike, I always think of you. You had always been my pillar of support. I needed you in my life ever since we became buddies 7 years ago. The thought of calling you flashed through my mind earlier. In the end, I did not. Not only that I stoppoed myself from doing so, I realised I had deleted you away from my life. I had deleted every trace of you from my life, be it your contact num, your email, your msn and even friendster. I had sealed my world from yours and I had stopped asking anyone else about you. I had stopped your news from spreading into my world. I had done such a good job that I had absolutely no idea how to reach you now. But I guess I was never important to you as you are to me. If I had been part of your life and if you had always been a phone call away as you promised, you would never walk out on me when I needed your affirmation. I expected you to support me as I truly believed you understood me or at least stand by me. You chose to walk on me and "advised" me to find someone else who can support my decision. It is indeed the most hurting thing from you. My life went barren without you. It had been really tough without you. I t is as tough as without Hong in my life. When we finally patched things, I really thought it was forever. I went all out to make sure you secured the deal. Perhaps securing the deal for you was never the ideal move. It ended our friendship. I always thought you were really just a phone call away. A corporate hiccup caused us this today. I may seem petty to delete you from my life but if I can never get hold of you through any means, what is the point of storing a number in my hp contacts, an email in my msn? It means nothing and yet, it meant the whole world to me. The loss of you in my life meant a loss in the pillar of my life. Perhaps you never know how important you were to me and you will never know.

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