Only 7.50am and I am already awake and sitting in front of the pc! I love mornings (at times). Anyway, woke up extra early to hitch a ride from Darl to send Belle to my mum's place. I am glad I decided not to sleep in and attempt to bring her over when I am leaving for work later cause it is pouring now!!!
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Anyway... Today is THE DAY! Totally different feeling as compared to leaving the previous company 3 years ago. 3 years ago, I was so saturated with work, the usual nonsense and etc etc that I actually felt a sense of relief when I tendered. Though I didn't have a new job after the tender, I felt happy. I felt happy cause I was freed from all those torments. Haha. Yes, it was torturous having to fight wars everyday.
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This time round, I tendered cause I realised my philosophy is no longer aligned with the centre's. Instead of me changing over the years, I strongly believe the centre's mission deviated over the past 1 year. When I submitted my resignation 3 weeks ago, I did not feel that kind of relief I had 3 years ago. Maybe cause right from the beginning, I know this is not the place for me to stay (real) long, especially after I disagree with many of the centre's new implementations. I feel pretty neutral today. However, I really cannot bear to leave my children, the cute P1, my mischievous P3 and the stressful P6. To a certain extent, I feel that I am leaving them in the lurch but as I told some of them, I will definitely be contactable if they ever want/ need to look for me. :)
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On the other hand, I am glad I do not have to go to work anymore!!!! Haha. So contradicting! I am glad I do not have to face people whom I do not like, especially (incapable) bootlickers. Actually, there isn't even the need to mention the word 'incapable' cause other than bootlicking, what can they do?! Hahaha. I am so good with my infer skills. Surprisingly, I am super pissed with 1 of the bootlickers. So pissed that I actually feel angry even just by looking at her. She must be one of the rare people whom I feel such strong piss-ness towards. Haha. I am so pissed that there are times I just want shout in her face. On a daily basis, I want tell her to wear something nicer. It is really an eyesore just looking at her. Eew~ Anyway, I am glad not having to see her anymore wearing her ugly clothes with her 'ta match' footwear, not having to hear her constantly calling for some child over the walkie talkie when the child had already gone home (Please listen to your walkie talkie for teachers' reply k. Don't just call and call cause you have an irritating voice), not having to listen to her talking about some nonsense (nonsense which makes me roll my eyes) or asking me irrelevant questions which I really do not want to answer (check the internet for answers lah since you have no GK - general knowledge if you do not know what it means) and locking your classroom when you want to stop your children from going in without permission. By the way, add-on rules happen as a result of the teacher being unable to control the children. When the teacher is unable to win the children over to follow the basic rules, more rules are implemented. Lives for children are made harder as a result of a teacher's incompetency. Get it?
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Yes. I am unhappy with the new implementations, not so much on the implementations which affect the teachers but rather those which affect the children. Sometimes, I wonder what's the objectives of these new implementations. Were they implemented for the genuine good of the children or just a control measure to 'showcase' their performance and hence, keep their rice bowl. I am very sure it is the latter. I see no genuine love for the children. Everything and everybody suxz.
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Anyway... Today is THE DAY! Totally different feeling as compared to leaving the previous company 3 years ago. 3 years ago, I was so saturated with work, the usual nonsense and etc etc that I actually felt a sense of relief when I tendered. Though I didn't have a new job after the tender, I felt happy. I felt happy cause I was freed from all those torments. Haha. Yes, it was torturous having to fight wars everyday.
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This time round, I tendered cause I realised my philosophy is no longer aligned with the centre's. Instead of me changing over the years, I strongly believe the centre's mission deviated over the past 1 year. When I submitted my resignation 3 weeks ago, I did not feel that kind of relief I had 3 years ago. Maybe cause right from the beginning, I know this is not the place for me to stay (real) long, especially after I disagree with many of the centre's new implementations. I feel pretty neutral today. However, I really cannot bear to leave my children, the cute P1, my mischievous P3 and the stressful P6. To a certain extent, I feel that I am leaving them in the lurch but as I told some of them, I will definitely be contactable if they ever want/ need to look for me. :)
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On the other hand, I am glad I do not have to go to work anymore!!!! Haha. So contradicting! I am glad I do not have to face people whom I do not like, especially (incapable) bootlickers. Actually, there isn't even the need to mention the word 'incapable' cause other than bootlicking, what can they do?! Hahaha. I am so good with my infer skills. Surprisingly, I am super pissed with 1 of the bootlickers. So pissed that I actually feel angry even just by looking at her. She must be one of the rare people whom I feel such strong piss-ness towards. Haha. I am so pissed that there are times I just want shout in her face. On a daily basis, I want tell her to wear something nicer. It is really an eyesore just looking at her. Eew~ Anyway, I am glad not having to see her anymore wearing her ugly clothes with her 'ta match' footwear, not having to hear her constantly calling for some child over the walkie talkie when the child had already gone home (Please listen to your walkie talkie for teachers' reply k. Don't just call and call cause you have an irritating voice), not having to listen to her talking about some nonsense (nonsense which makes me roll my eyes) or asking me irrelevant questions which I really do not want to answer (check the internet for answers lah since you have no GK - general knowledge if you do not know what it means) and locking your classroom when you want to stop your children from going in without permission. By the way, add-on rules happen as a result of the teacher being unable to control the children. When the teacher is unable to win the children over to follow the basic rules, more rules are implemented. Lives for children are made harder as a result of a teacher's incompetency. Get it?
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Yes. I am unhappy with the new implementations, not so much on the implementations which affect the teachers but rather those which affect the children. Sometimes, I wonder what's the objectives of these new implementations. Were they implemented for the genuine good of the children or just a control measure to 'showcase' their performance and hence, keep their rice bowl. I am very sure it is the latter. I see no genuine love for the children. Everything and everybody suxz.
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