My emotions have been rather unstable. I realise I haven't feel happiness for a long time. I have only been feeling bad, worse or worst. I am unable to feel any (real) joy. Even my favourite shows do not perk me up as much as before.
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Darl never fails to cheer me up but it doesn't work as effectively anymore. I do (still) break into a smile when I see his face but it doesn't relieve me of the emotions in me. In fact, I am being overwhelmed by my emotions and I am unable to break free. In fact, I can sense myself sinking into depression.
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I am unable to relate my thoughts and feelings to anyone. Darl thinks that I will get better after resuming church. I guess it will help. I know I will feel better if I let go of it completely but it is not that simple. I am already trying my very best.
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I do not know of anyone who can understand me. I am feeling so desperate and delicate that anything can trigger me into depression.
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Yet maybe I should rejoice that things will not get any worse. What else can I not tolerate when I can't even find a corner to hide my emotions and tears now?
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