Today is probably my worst day and the worst shopping day. Now that I have cooled down, I can't exactly pinpoint what triggered off the sucky feeling in me (It's normal cause I always cannot pinpoint what trigger my anger or mood swing) but I only know that I still feel super sucky.
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Darl probably understands but I doubt he really grasps the point. It is not about whether I bought anything. It is not about me being inflexible and wanting to stick to the original plan. I already knew the plan would be thwarted. To cut the long story short, I just feel terrible. Super terrible. I hate this feeling. I feel so upset that I really want to go back to my own house and stay in my own room and find peace. I know I will feel more at peace if I read the book I am reading now but the sucky feeling is so tremendous that I can't bring myself to do anything, not even to watch my favourite TV show now.
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Anything can trigger me off now. To make myself feel better, I am going to buy myself a Christmas gift. Haha. I am going to buy myself the bag I fancy, regardless of the price. Haha. In fact, I had the intention to get 2 bags so I shall do that tomorrow.
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Darl probably understands but I doubt he really grasps the point. It is not about whether I bought anything. It is not about me being inflexible and wanting to stick to the original plan. I already knew the plan would be thwarted. To cut the long story short, I just feel terrible. Super terrible. I hate this feeling. I feel so upset that I really want to go back to my own house and stay in my own room and find peace. I know I will feel more at peace if I read the book I am reading now but the sucky feeling is so tremendous that I can't bring myself to do anything, not even to watch my favourite TV show now.
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Anything can trigger me off now. To make myself feel better, I am going to buy myself a Christmas gift. Haha. I am going to buy myself the bag I fancy, regardless of the price. Haha. In fact, I had the intention to get 2 bags so I shall do that tomorrow.
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