Estimated Due Date: TODAY

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Nah... I am not due yet. I guess it would be perfect if my darling baby girl can afford to wait for another 3 more days. My beloved gynae is on holidays so... If I am due anytime before she is back from her holidays, I will be referred to another doctor. I caught a glimpse of that doctor this morning when I went for my check-up. I didn't like her though the glimpse lasted for only 3 seconds.

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Went for the 4th CTG scan this morning. Seriously speaking, I am not sure of what is the true purpose behind this weekly CTG scan. Was supposed to see the referred doctor right after my scan. So we proceeded to her clinic after the scan. Hated her clinic the every second I stepped into her clinic. Yes, I hated it on the spot. Nah... The clinic is not nua. In fact, it was done up very nicely, nicely in the sense that it used a lot of expensive materials so as to give the whole clinic a very posh feel. However, the feel is just so not right. I hated all her staff too! None of them looks friendly enough loh, unlike my very own gynae. My very own gynae has this super motherly feel and she makes me real comfy with her on my very 1st visit. To top it off, she has superb staff who recognises me and Hong by our 2nd visit. In a nutshell, they are wonderful people. But those at the referred clinic, I disliked everyone of them. They look so 'bu gan yuan' to be at work. They don't look friendly. They don't even sound friendly. I seriously dislike them. Arrgh!

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Today turns out to be a wasted trip. Just when I reached the clinic, the unfriendly staff told me that their doctor is going to do a delivery after seeing one more patient (who is just before me). So... I have to wait for her return. How long do I have to wait? No one can give an estimation cause it all depends on the baby. Well... Understood. But it can be as fast as within half an hour or hours leh. So I am supposed to just sit at the clinic and wait aimlessly? Idiot. The staff has no solution for me at all but I will forgive her for her stupidity (not because I am kind. For some other reason. Nope. Not of karma also). In the end, we decided to reschedule the appointment to tomorrow morning. Now... We have to make another trip to town tomorrow, going through the ERP, expensive parking and crowd. Anyway, Hong makes sense. I was at the clinic half an hour earlier for my CTG scan. The doctor (for sure) already knew she had a delivery case in that half hour time frame. Why didn't they inform me earlier? They only bother to inform me when it was going to be my turn. Duh. I am totally speechless. I can only say... I am really disgusted by the people in THAT clinic. No way I will step into THAT clinic again (except for tomorrow) or refer anyone to THAT clinic. Can you sense my anger towards them? Haha.

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Back to myself and baby... I am like a sitting duck or rather a time bomb. Haha. I know I am going to 'explode' soon... But it is a question of when. So here I am at home... Feeling helpless... Can anyone understand that feeling? I want to communicate this feeling to Hong but I do not know how. Though I keep repeating I am not prepared, I am not prepared for the sudden gush of labour pain which till now... I am seriously not sure how it is supposed to feel like. I am like so lost...

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Anyway, Hong has been spending lots of time with me since he is on 'maternity leave' too. Haha. Over the last 4 days, we spent 2 days doing some light window shopping at IMM, Liang Court, Bugis and United Square. Yes... Window shopping. There are stuff we want to buy but not at the moment. Still shopping for the best deal. Went to look at mattresses again. I guess our final choice should be 'Serta Sophistication'. Anyway, it has been a long time since I met a typical sales person. We met one when we popped by Sealy boutique. Typical dishonest sales person loh~ Trying to con us with his lousy sales tactics till Hong stunned him. Haha. Anyway, weekends were packed with games (for him) and arts and crafts (for me! It has been a long time since I do so much handicrafts).

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I am getting long-winded~

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